death

when i was young,
you were always there for me.
you were there to feed me,
there to comfort me.

as i got older,
i got separated from you
we don't get to see each other as often,
but i knew you still care for me.


when i enter my teenage years,
i only saw you once a year.
during lunar year.
when everyone gathers.

indifference started as i got busy with my studies,
i start to forget about you,
only when i heard that you were unwell,
did i went to visit you

even then, i only went once.
you look so different then, so haggard.
i grew afraid, scared.
thinking that by not seeing you, i can deny this fact.

now that you're going,
i can't bear to be apart
not even to think the world without you
i love you.